fighting

i have been ill for a month now...from a common cold, to a persistent cough, to a vicious cough, to gum infection, to re-infection and stronger medication...

i hope to recover for good. i'm tired being sick. i'm tired of fighting the illness. i'm tired of waking up at night coughing. i'm tired of the dull ache in my lungs. i'm tired of the heaviness in my sinus. i'm tired of not being able to eat. i'm tired of not being able to smell. i'm tired of feeling groggy. i'm tired.

i know how miniscule this is compared to frightful diseases. Nevertheless, the side effect of my medication and the symptoms of illness has taken a toll on me.

i cannot help but admit that i'm no longer vibrant 18 - where nothing can bring me down.