No atheist in the midst of a storm

After his recent victorious win, all eyes are on Obama to resolve the World's next greatest financial crisis - besides the Great Depression.

Before we speculate on his to-be-proven capability, here's my theory on why Obama got elected. Well, of course, other than the obvious disappointment Americans have for the Bush Administration. First, a story needs to be told.

- Once upon a time, there was a dying Atheist. His family members were staunch Catholics, and were trying desperately to "convert" him before his last breath.

One night, Satan visted him. Satan said: My boy, I'm a fairly diplomatic person. Hence, I will not sell Hell to you. I will paint you a picture of both Heaven and Hell, so that you can make a wise choice.

Heaven...well, Heaven is a nice place, peaceful yeah, and filled with lotsa clouds. If you were to go to Heaven, you will be sitting on clouds and playing the harp all day long. Kinda boring huh?

As for Hell, let me tell you, we are all having a hell of a time there! It's filled with casinos, clubs, women, wine, good food, sex and plenty of fun. I can assure you of a great time if you were to choose Hell!

Believing Satan's words, the dying Atheist chose Hell. Not long after, he breathed his last and descended into Hell. To his dismay, he saw only lotsa fire, burning souls and crying. He cried out: Why oh why?? I thought Satan said Hell was a great place filled with pleasures??

At this moment, Satan appeared to him and said: My boy, what you are seeing now...is the reality. Back on Earth...I was only CAMPAIGNING :p -

Truth is, the reality is really bleak now. Obama has at most 8 years to work on the financial, racial and environmental breakdown. Kudos to him if he can dunk one by the end of his terms.

mysterious woods

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep
But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep.

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.

A name, my name

After reading the article on Sunday's ST, we were playfully pondering on a name I could take on if I were one of them.

Sifting through the many "F's", I realised there weren't many nice names that start with F. So I off-handedly said: I don't think I will change my name lah, because...And I stopped short.

I guess I wanted to say: because it's one of the nicer name that starts with "F". But no.

It's because you gave me my name. You wanted me to be a happy person.

I don't think I will change my name...because you gave me my name, Aunt A.

Tell me where it hurts

Barely a week from Aunt A's demise, I heard a song late one night. Reeling from yet avoiding the loss, it made me feel weak. The simple yet sincere singing touched my heart.

Someone missed telling me that Aunt A called for me in her last moments. In the midst of all the grief and confusion, I do not blame anyone. My heart ached more.

Realisation hit me. While time is on my side, I should live my worth, give my best, and love my all. I do not want to regret what I missed out.

That having said...I'm still a coward in many senses. I can only hope that I will be able to make the good times last longer, give as much as my heart allows, and love as selflessly as possible.

~It takes a lot to fall for someone. But it takes more for the same someone to stay by your side when you eventually fall~ Fishy

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-Tell me where it hurts-

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling
Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby

Give me a chance to put back all the pieces
Take your broken heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Eulogy for aunt A...

A call came in on 20 July 2008, 2:30am. I was not asleep yet. I opened my door and Empress Dowager was crying. It's really goodbye for now.

I waited while things got arranged. The kids were hurdling around. C asked me what happened. I did not know how to break the news.

When I finally saw you through the small glass window, still, souless...reality set in. Flashbacks to the last time I saw you smiling, talking and eating. WHY...I do not understand why. There were worst cases that pulled through. Your kindness does not deserve such an ending.

As the world continues to revolve, time stood still for all who care.

I know I should not grieve. I know that you are in a beautiful and painless place now. I know that you need morphine no more.

You have lived a short but meaningful life. I know that A will continue the journey for you. In time to come, she will be as kind and as beautiful as you were.

God bless your final journey aunt A...

Developing gynephobia

I have a distant acquaintance who just announced today she's getting married. Approximately 5 months ago, she was still hesitating if she should accept her to-be-husband as a boyfriend. I remember she even commented about his lack of looks back then.

I couldn't believe my ears. Are all girls so unpredictable? Why are girls sometimes so unfathomable? Maybe I just don't get it.

She can be lukewarm in one minute, while in another, she looks so happy being with you. In one second, she sounds happy chatting with you. In another, she seems like miles away. SIGH.

The best part is, you never know what she feels. That's why speculation can't work for me. It's either a do, or simply die waiting for the truth...

I always get told off by my friends that given my identity, they expect muar to be less thick skulled. :( I choose to think that I have a perpetual headgear on...hindering my feline senses.

Nevertheless..at the end of the day, the infallible pull from the unfathomable fairer sex will always triumph over the developing gynephobia :p

dinners that almost didn't ring the bell

SL asked for my blog addy yesterday, saying that her new lappie didn't have my blog addy as fav. A moment later, she exclaimed: why is it full of chinese songs??

Ok, so here I am...back again, trying to do some writing.

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Work is crazy. As always. People mgmt is never easy. As Dad always say, it's easier to be a single contributor. I think he secretly wishes for that. Ok, maybe it's not such a secret since he says it out loud. Anyway, I will still have to give it a shot.

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I had a splitting headache yesterday. In order to avoid the crowd and have a nice and quiet dinner, we headed to Keppel Marina - Takumi.

By the time we were greeted enmasse by the bowing staff, it was 9pm. By the time we were served our Teppanyaki sets, it was 10pm. The ambience was great though, so the time that went by didn't really felt loooooong. Of course, the salty appetiser and uber-friendly japanese waitress helped quite a lil. The salmon and beef were pretty well marinated. However, the fish oil didn't really go down too well and by the time we asked for the bill, we were salmon oil-sick :-s

The bill, of course didn't come in tiny digits too. It was pretty "fine-dining whooping" for a supper :P

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Today is Daddy's day. I brought my Dad to RC @ Raffles, having read in the papers about it's renovation and specialties.

The first thought upon entering the restaurant is...am I in a Chinese restaurant? The decor is very simple - reminds me of a HUGE tiffany's box (go there and you will know what I mean). The staff (according to Empress Dowager), dresses like military personnel :-s The food...oh well, I think our fav Por Kee can do the same standards on a good day :P

What impresses us is their "salt-baked" chicken (which they named shredded chicken??!!). I'm glad we made a "mistake" and got to try authentic salt-baked chicken ;)

Price tag wise, it's pretty reasonable for fine-dining China. Palette-wise, Empress Dowager will let you know she will have Shang anytime.

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At the end of the day, it's my pocket that got burnt :( But nothing's more impt than having everyone happy and enjoying time together ;)

愛情歲月

要是我没有记忆怎会怀缅
要是我没有从前
难道我便会共你
通过任何试炼
伴你走到终点

我恨我没有掩饰心里视线
我恨我尚有弱点
望见她走过我面前
苦里带着甜
难道爱情未搁浅

但岁月最清楚
她不算什么
曾凭着勇气爱上天真的我
留下不多不少一些经过
将片段重播
一生不够多

愿你亦看清楚
她不算什么
曾成就当初开开心心的我
如若我狠心得转身闪过
不要在乎我
不必恋上我
可以扮忘记
都可将你掠过

在你眼裡

沒有風　雲以為自己可以慢慢移動
沒有你　我以為世界照常轉動
直到光　照不進我那半隱居的窗口
直到愛　叫醒我隱藏起來的脆弱

其實我愛著你　只是我騙自己
我要的世界　原來在你眼裏
其實我抗拒你　卻找到更多的證明
那乾了的淚　原來在你眼裏

轉了彎　河以為就能找到那面大海
走的遠　我以為只有這雙腳會酸
直到雨　告訴我一個人撐傘的孤單
直到愛　推倒了在我面前的勇敢

其實我愛著你　只是我騙自己
我要的世界　倒映在你眼裏
其實我抗拒你　卻找到更多的證明
那乾了的淚　原來在你眼裏

愛著你　我懂得不再騙自己
那明天的我　正在等你　相遇

I need some cheering up

I'm feeling down. Maybe it's quarter-life crisis. Maybe I really should move on. Should I give it a chance?

Definitely, Maybe

The best way to retort is to touch someone's heart :D

A: “No, you are asking me to join a group institution that fails as often as it succeeds, for no other reason besides to fulfill some bourgeois notion to fulfill this society’s capitalistic agenda.”

W: "Ok ok, shut up. You’re the first person I want to see when I wake up, and the last person I want to kiss before I go to bed every night. And when I saw these hands I knew that I wanted to hold them for the rest of my life. And because if you love someone as much as I love you, that is the only thing you can do."

Very belated 3-0 celebration

I celebrated the big 3-0 birthday for M today. It was really belated - largely due to her exams and work back in Jan.

Something she said jolted me today.

"I realised we do not have pictures together. You know...what we have eventually to remember moments together are pictures."

I was quite surprised. I'm sure we took pictures together. I was sure we did :p haha...ok, maybe we didn't. So I said:

"I don't need pictures to remember someone by. Maybe places. But not for people, esp. those who are still by my side."

She then went on to say that with my "black-holing" memory, she doubt I can remember how she looked. And so I went on to cite the many hairstyles she had over the years. But she was not satisfied. She lamented on the fact I do not remember her face - which seriously did not change much :*

Anyway, I willingly obliged and allowed her to snap plenty at the Korean pl, at Altivo...

I guess as we reach a certain phase, we tend to pay closer attention to what we have around us. Turn back time to when we first met, I bet taking pictures to remember "us" will be the last thing on our minds.

Ok, stop being morbid. Time to hit the sack.

手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概

不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋

最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待

我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

The game of love

If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life.

Oscar Wilde

i miss you...

many a times, it's only when someone is not by your side.....then you realise how much you miss her...

The mendable heart

God doesn't hate us. If he did, he wouldn't have made our hearts so brave.

thick skull

Ok, I'm officially pissed at work now. That's because there are really thick skull people around. Esp. those at the subsidiary. Don't you understand English? Why don't you google the difference between hashing and encryption? Haven't what I said sank in? Why is your project plan so different from what I require of you?

That's it. You are going to receive a very "straight-forward" email from me first thing in the morning. You shall receive no more customer-oriented treatment from me. I'm so pissed I doubt I can go to sleep. Funny thing is, I feel like laughing at your stupidity as well :s

Big SIGH at you nincompoots.

*breathing in...breathing out...breathing in...

*fading out

love

with every relationship comes problems...and deep within the problems lie the solution ;)

lost

it's never easy
when the words don't come out right
it's hardly true
when we act like it's alright

faced with you
i'm at a loss
faced with us
it's like we've never been there

losing you
will be my greatest regret
losing hope
i rather not wish

my battered heart needs
to feel the rain
to see the rainbow
to learn how to leave the rest to fate

my resolution

effective = do the right things
efficient = do things the right way

in all aspects, i resolve to do right things the right way in 2008