recently, I've come to realise that my fears of saying goodbye (Ref: 06 entry on "Saying Goodbye") have escalated into fears of abandonment.
well, I guess I won't say it's a recent realisation since I've kinda known that I've been afraid of being cut off, or orphaned by my near and dear all along. what I didn't know was the severity or degree of my fear.
H pointed out to me - you know, your fear of abandonment ties in with not knowing how to manage loss and to let go. And this is something that unfortunately you will have to experience to learn. I know H learnt it the hard way...so it's fair for her to say that.
However, I just have to admit that while I know the theoretics...I still get bad dreams all the time.
I've shared the same to either N or SL (I can't rem which)...and likewise, I was told this is an issue.
SIGH. I don't have an inkling of what I can do for now. I guess I'll just have to muddle along and see what happens.
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in time to come..
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