Reality

I watched Lost and Delirious while taking a break. I did not finish it.

Before I watched the movie, I read reviews about it. How morbid, how extreme, how real. I think I know the ending more or less even if I didn't have the spoiler. I didn't have to watch further to be reminded of what a long and winding road it had been, and will be. It's a reality check.

By stereotyping, you would be able to find many Pauline-Tori relationships end up the same way. The more versatile girl will usually move on almost heartlessly with great success, while the less adaptable girl will drown in despair - literally. I do not need to be reminded of how hard I fought to be what I am today. Or of how much I had to forget in order to remember myself for tomorrow.

I want to be remembered for all the good things that have happened. I want to be remembered as the one who has made a difference. I want to be remembered as the one who proved things worked. I want to be remembered as the one who could not crumble - even though it was so hard "without you".

Maybe it's silly of me to smile like a child and relish Disney endings when I watch movies. Esp. more so when I watch movies like Saving Face and Imagine Me & U. It's not because I'm naive enough to pursue mindlessly at fairy tale endings in this ever-changing world.

Rather, it's because I know that Happy-ever-afters do exist. It's just a matter of where, when, and who.